Wowooo. Note to self: Self-induced tonsillitis is a side effect of extreme stress. If I was a little grosser, I’d post a picture of my tonsil for you all to enjoy. I want to, deep down inside, but I won’t.
I had so many things due these past few weeks: Acted in 2 shorts, music rehearsals, interviews, auditions, callbacks, social obligations, not to mention a sketch show thrown together at the last minute (went fabulously, thank you for asking), a Guild shoot, some stressful inter-personal confrontations (of which I am horribly phobic), my improv theatre closing down and then my grandfather’s health taking a brief turn for the worse. Combine all these items and that equals insomnia, chest pains, constipation and a tonsil that’s so big it could crawl out of my mouth and take down a small village. Made me wish for the lazy days of the strike again, except I really need to get working and getting paid for it too, haha.
Yesterday, I was able to breathe a sigh of relief and answer 82 emails from my inbox. That took a load off my chest, because there’s nothing more groanworthy than a Gmail inbox that you have to actually flip through the pages of. Then I spent 3 hours browsing WordPress skins, and got stressed again when I was making a to-do list, realizing that…I had wasted 3 hours browsing WordPress skins. I rationalized it away as “me” time.
Anyway, the shoot for The Guild: Episode #9 went great! We had a great time and were helped, yet again, by Flog Reader Dustin and his friend Jermaine. I went out of my way to get Dustin’s face showing in a few shots, but if it ends up on the cutting room floor, I don’t want to get a Union notice in the mail, hear me DUSTIN!?! Here’s a pic from the set I took on my crappy camera. You’ll notice Zaboo sneaking into the background in this picture That’s pretty much fair game for every picture on set. Thank you Dustin for coming down again!
We have one more episode to shoot in the current storyline and then it’s back to the drawing board for me as a writer. I’m not going to start writing until we film the next episode, in 2 weeks, because I want to have a fresh start. I am excited however, because we’ve been on one constant track, and now I can focus on different characters, different storylines, I just have to…come up with them. Yipes. Of course I have anxiety that I can’t come up with something great, that it was a one-time thing, I’ve heard that writers feel that a lot, but as a non-professional writer I feel it quite acutely. And I’m neurotic. But part of me is excited to start fresh with these characters, who are my friends
Strange thing, I complain when I’m busy and I complain when I’m not busy. I think I’ll pop in the meditation tapes again.